An Actual Update

[eumelia]

It's been a while since I wrote something of "importance".
I suppose it's because I've taken a break from the news and all the things that cause outrage are out of my scope at the moment... that and hagar_972 reads the news and writes about it, so it seems a bit redundant to write about it myself... which is odd since our readership is not the same, though we share quite a few readers they're friends we know IRL.

One thing I did a couple of weeks ago and didn't tell any one and those who've seen me have seen it and that is that I bleached my hair.
Yup I'm a blond and no, I'm not having any more fun than I was before. I do, however, got a boost in my self image which I hadn't had in a couple of months, the amount of time I hadn't been shaving my head.
I think I got tired of my Mother's disappointed gaze every time she looked at me, she really hated the fact that I shaved, she felt I was taking away from myself.
It appears that very few people actually like my shaved hair... which shouldn't really bother, since I didn't do it for other people, I bleached my hair for a change, not to make myself look better - it's just that, I hate the fact that my hair has this much of an affect on my self-esteem and image.
I really liked having a shaved head and will most likely shave it again once the weather is more stable and not so chilly. But again, I'm not sure I can handle my mother's gaze again, I mean it's not like I looked bad (I looked great!) and besides I'm pretty, it'd have to be a disaster to look bad, because if you're good looking, or feel good about yourself there isn't much you can do to yourself that will looks bad.

But enough of that, this isn't the place for shallow pondering and self pity. Then again this is LJ, where "Drama are us".
I like drama.
I like making waves, I enjoy making a slight difference and seeing people's reaction, I like making a whole lot of difference.

I suddenly know what I want to write a post about.

Comments

I can so relate

[redgrrl2001.livejournal.com]

It's really crazy how much emphasis is put on womens hair. I really just don't get it. A man can shave his head any day of the week, cut his hair any way he sees fit and it's no biggie but you let a woman do the same thing and...OMG!! It's like the world is coming to an end. What is the DEAL with people and womens hair? I've caught all kinds of hell from people commenting on my hair and now if they dare say something I tell them it's MY hair on MY head and and last time I checked I am free to do whatever I want with it including cutting it any way I want to they can kindly piss off with the comments and how they "Don't like it" because I don't give a rat's ass what they like. So people mostly leave me alone about it now because they know I will tear them a new one if they open their mouths about it. I just got fed up with it. I'm not public property and neither is my head or what grows on it.

Re: I can so relate

[eumelia.livejournal.com]

Tell me about it... I used to have hair all the way down to my waist and I felt like it was an accomplishment. I mean fuck, it's hair!