Update to Situation Roach
May. 20th, 2013 10:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
My bff came and sprayed the dishwasher for me. It appears the fuckers are coming from out of the drain. It's also possible that they flew in from the window because it's fucking hot and those monsters can fly.
The dishwasher and the area are currently poisonous, which is fine because my appetite is fucking shot.
I don't know what to do other than keep the spray close at hand.
I'm just...
Really scared.
Oh my god, this phobia has just gotten worse over the years. I used to be able to handle these, I used to kill these things for other people when I was in the army, now it feels like they're crawling all over me.
Now every movement out of the corner of my eye is a nightmare. I probably should have gone with my bff and slept at her place, but I don't want to leave the house unattended while my parents are gone (yes, they're on holiday! Remember what happened the last time they went for a vacation, because I do!)
I can't handle this on my own, I just can't. And now my sister just called and I burst into tears.
This is such bullshit.
The dishwasher and the area are currently poisonous, which is fine because my appetite is fucking shot.
I don't know what to do other than keep the spray close at hand.
I'm just...
Really scared.
Oh my god, this phobia has just gotten worse over the years. I used to be able to handle these, I used to kill these things for other people when I was in the army, now it feels like they're crawling all over me.
Now every movement out of the corner of my eye is a nightmare. I probably should have gone with my bff and slept at her place, but I don't want to leave the house unattended while my parents are gone (yes, they're on holiday! Remember what happened the last time they went for a vacation, because I do!)
I can't handle this on my own, I just can't. And now my sister just called and I burst into tears.
This is such bullshit.