Girly Girly Girl!

[eumelia]

I bought a pair of Bermuda shorts today.

I'm very happy with them.

One problem.

They need to be taken in at the waist.

I'm a bit put out because of it. I didn't have to do that with the Cargo shorts I bought last year, but meh.

The thing is, before I settled on those shorts I looked through the women's selections that they had at the store and honestly, I don't understand why the shorts need to be so low so as to show off our pubic hair.

I have nothing against Hot Pants or Daisy Dukes, but the waist line does not have to start and end at the lower hip!

So I immediately axed that selection and went straight to the men's section. What really grinds my gears is also the size differentiation. Obviously I'm putting on shorts made for a thin man or a teenager, but the women's are all in sized which my ass would bust out of, even if it was my size and I'm a size 38 (that's Eurpean sizes and dudes, that is not in any way big - despite the psychosis that plagues many of us about how big or small we actually are) and they were all so tight.

Of course, that's not what really bothered me.

My mom came with me and she said: "You have a feminine figure, men's clothing will never look good on you".

I smiled ruefully. I'm not the greatest of fashionistas, of this I'm aware. I'm very lazy and don't actually enjoy shopping for clothes, it's always a little humiliating.

My feminine figure, which has recently become more accentuated because I dropped about 10kg over the past year, for which I've received nothing but compliments, of course. My hair is also long enough to be pulled into a pony tail with makes my cheek bones much more noticeable.
Weight loss doesn't freak me out like it used to (still a little associative with the second Lebanon War in which I dropped about 10kg in a month) but being scrutinised by shop workers and my mom kind of freaks me out.

Men's clothing will never look good on me. I never really tried the whole men's clothes thing, but in October there's going to be a Dress-Up and a birthday party, so maybe I'll try it out. I'll have to ask my Drag King friends to help me, because dude, I do not know how to do this sort of thing with long hair.

Gender performance is hard.