I can't imagine living through what you have gone through. But the person you are today is a testament to your strength and integrity -- instead of blocking out the experience entirely, or letting it take over your life, you're taking all of those emotions you've described as negative and channeling them into your studies, your work and your activism. I really admire you for that because it's incredibly difficult to take a traumatizing experience and turn it into this positive, ass-kicking force. And you've done it, girl!